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  • Lazy Day

    Lazy Day

    Today was a lazy day. I haven’t done much, but I still need to write a chapter if I want to maintain my 30+ day streak of writing. I don’t even know how today’s chapter will really go.

    I keep thinking of things in my head, but the longer a story goes on, the more uncertain I become of the outcomes. It makes sense really. The more words you write, the greater the chance you will make mistakes.

    As someone who never finished an entire series, this will be the first one I complete, so I am nervous about reader perception. There are currently 55 chapters, but I still need many more to finish it. By the way, this story is not really tied to this identity like my two stories on Scribble Hub are.

    This one is tied to my real identity, so I keep it a secret mostly. It’s doing pretty well nonetheless. Though, there is still a lot of work I need to do for both school and the story. I hope I won’t feel too drained by the time I am done.

    Thanks for reading.

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  • Great White Sharks are the Universe’s eraser of seals.

    Great White Sharks are the Universe’s eraser of seals.

    I don’t even know what to write about. I already write every day as a goal to myself for a novel, yet when I start this blog, I have no idea what to talk about. Does this mean I am uninteresting?

    It feels like the most interesting people always have something to talk about. I can only find things to latch onto if I see them or think of things that interest me and relay them. I’m not a great conversationalist.

    If you asked me to start talking, I would freeze and stand there. But, if you started talking about dinosaurs, that is something I can latch onto. By the way, what is your favorite dinosaur? If someone answers, I will give my answer because I am unfair like that.

    Oh, but I am good at relating two completely random subjects together. If you ask me to compile a sentence containing three completely unrelated things, I could probably connect them. Like if you said, “compose a relation between erasers, sharks, and the universe in a sentence,” I would be able to do it in a few seconds. Is this even a talent? Maybe everyone can do it.

    Given this example: Great White Sharks are the Universe’s eraser of seals.

    Thank you for reading this randomness.

    RepresentingEnvy (En-Chan)

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  • Vulnerability Is Strength

    Vulnerability Is Strength

    What is vulnerability?

    Vulnerability is opening yourself up—presenting yourself so that you may face criticism. Vulnerability is creating a story and letting commenters say what they will. Vulnerability is saying exactly what you love with the fear of being looked down upon. Vulnerability is exposing your belly to the world and your enemies.

    This is something I think about all of the time. On the internet, I am more vulnerable than many but less vulnerable than others. Some people will expose their entire identity, leaving the core of themselves open to scrutiny. I haven’t gone that far, but I do openly engage in discourse, and tell people the things I love.

    I make it no secret that I love vampires, girls love stories, and many other things I have said openly. There are times when I truly regret exposing myself for a moment, yet I continue to do it, and I continue to thrive despite that.

    Everyone is scared to expose themself. Nobody wants to present their belly to people who could potentially be their enemy. What happens when you tell the world, “I love painting!”

    You shout your love of the arts from the rooftop, and then you paint something you find beautiful. You post it online, and many others see the beauty of your painting. However, there is that one commenter.

    “This painting sucks.”

    The worst thing about comments like these is it requires nothing of the other person. Did they present a vulnerability? No.

    You spent hours of your life painting, and then you were vulnerable. Someone attacked that vulnerability. I think this is why many people stop being open. Nobody wants to present their belly, only for it to be stabbed in the next instance.

    I’ve had this happen to me before as well. I’ve written stories, gotten feedback that wasn’t constructive, and I took it personally. It feels like a personal attack when you open yourself up. And it’s a cowardly move by the attacker to strike at that moment.

    I’ve experienced comments filled with hate. I have experienced people attacking things I love without ever telling me something they love. It’s so easy to take these attacks and want to give up. It’s happened to me numerous times.

    Yet, I will never seek your pity or sympathy. I will continue to make posts like this. I will continue to write stories that I and other people can enjoy. I will continue to tell people on forums about my interests and share some of my beliefs.

    I will not stop being vulnerable even if there are trolls who exist. This is because I believe that there is strength in vulnerability.

    Thanks for reading my ramblings.

    RepresentingEnvy (En-Chan)

    2 responses to “Vulnerability Is Strength”

    1. TechnologicalHuman Avatar
      TechnologicalHuman

      this blog article sucks

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      1. Envy (En-Chan) Avatar

        Thank you. I’m a sucker after all.

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  • Commenters

    Commenters

    Readers and commenters are genuinely nice people for the most part, and I think it’s reflective of the average person. I get many readers who ask me questions, provide their own thoughts and insight, and make predictions on the novel.

    Each of these people are dear to me, just as the people who criticize. If it wasn’t for these people, I would not have grown so much as an author. They guided me to answers I usually didn’t consider or questions I would have never thought to ask.

    It’s funny in a way. You start writing a slice of life story that was never intended to be the most deep or thought provoking experience, yet some readers say the story is interesting and thought provoking. Then they tell you you’re doing a great job. It’s hard for me to wrap my head around, and it makes me want to tell an even better story.

    The story can remain as a SoL, but maybe I will add other elements of intrigue that I never saw authors add? Why shouldn’t I add gluttonous candle monsters to a tried dungeon trope? Why wouldn’t I name this kingdom Candlewax Kingdom? It’s all super fun to think about it.

    But, here comes the problem. You take it all in, you begin to think of ways to make the story deeper, and in turn, you lost the essence of creating a meaningless wholesome SoL. Now, you have commenters that are split.

    “Hey, author! I loved the story when it was more about absurd humor.”

    “Hey, author! This switch-up is too jarring to read.”

    “Hey, author! I love that the story is dynamic and things actually have more meaning in the end.”

    “Hey, author! I am so invested in these more interesting plot lines that I made a theory about the main cast.”

    Recognizing these comments isn’t me wanting to disparage anyone or seek sympathy. I just find it interesting. Often times, the truth of an author is somewhere in these weeds of comments. Two different people can read the same sentence and come away with different meanings, and who is to say they are wrong?

    An author cannot force their opinions onto people, even if it’s about their own story. Or I should say, especially if it’s about their own story.

    Anyway, I found these things while writing, and I know this post was mostly yapping. However, I thank you for reading if you did. You can also comment here and tell me how/why you are wasting your time reading this.

    RepresentingEnvy (En-Chan)

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  • Why Runa Is Gay

    Why Runa Is Gay

    For this post, I will be proving why my friend—Runa—is gay using circumstantial evidence. Thank you to Iamnotabot in advance for reading this.

    First, we have to identify the signs. Runa, Reinaislost, and Pudding. Understand that by default having multiple names does not make you gay. However, we must highlight the nickname of “Pudding.”

    Pudding is a jiggly and sweet substance. People eat it as a dessert. Are desserts gay? Not by themselves. However, when you add the combination of wiggly, it starts to appear sus.

    Runa and pudding are one in the same. They are both wiggly and sweet. Furthermore, she likes fairy tales. Now, everyone knows that fairies are definitely gay. Liking the tails of fairies naturally would make one gay.

    Let’s go over the evidence we’ve gathered thus far. Runa is pudding. Pudding is wiggly just like fairies which are gay. Runa likes fairy tails which are wiggly appendages. GG, Runa is gay.

    This post is meant to be taken with super seriousness. It is an accurate deduction based on real facts.

    RepresentingEnvy (En-Chan)

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  • Today I Made A Blog

    Today I Made A Blog

    It was for no particular reason. A friend got me interested in blogs. Now, I am throwing this one into the void of the internet.

    I often mention things in forum sites that would be better suited to a blog format. I have no idea what I am doing, but I will pretend as if I do. While you listen to these ramblings, consider a few questions.

    If you were to make a blog, what would you write about? Are you someone that likes cooking? Do you go on long walks? What fascinates you the most about this world?

    Personally, I love books. I picked up reading from a very young age, and I have stuck to it since then. It only makes sense that later in life I would pick up writing. What started as a hobby ended up being something I wanted to turn into a full career.

    I write books on other websites. I even became prolific on a small writing site called Scribble Hub. The friend who spoke to me about blogging I also met on there. Overall, they are great people, and I recommend it for anyone who wants to dip their toes into writing. You don’t even have to be an amazing writer to get featured on trending. The proof was me doing exactly that multiple times.

    As I sit here and yap, I wonder what this will become, but I thank you for reading it while you are here.

    RepresentingEnvy (En-Chan)

    8 responses to “Today I Made A Blog”

    1. Envy (En-Chan) Avatar

      I figured out how to leave a comment, cool.

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      1. Kamba Avatar
        Kamba

        I did too!

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    2. soli-sama Avatar
      soli-sama

      Ayy, nice. congratulation

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      1. Envy (En-Chan) Avatar

        Thanks Silly Soli-Sama

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    3. Corty Avatar
      Corty

      Enterestimg.

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    4. TechnologicalHuman Avatar
      TechnologicalHuman

      not as good as my blog

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    5. Kamba Avatar
      Kamba

      Oh rip

      Envy-chan – 2025

      Thanks for hiring me.

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